My most beloved online chat partner utterly shocked me today. I’ve known her for last four months and I was very fond of her clever ways of talking. Today, she revealed to me that she’s interested in pursuing an affair with her cousin. I’ve also learned that she’s fond of marijuana. I thought I’d never live to see the day. I’m having goose bumps all over my arms and back of my neck.

Ever since I’ve known her, I thought she was the kind of person I would like to meet; we used to synchronize on almost everything. We used to have eye opening conversations about politics, arts, world affairs and such. I remember we having most lively discussion of merits of same-sex marriage and legalizing medical marijuana. My oh my, I should have taken a hint at then. I’ve never given a thought that she’s fond of marijuana for herself. I thought she was just defending her position in the debate, and defending the people who need medical marijuana. As a young healthy woman, I naturally assumed she’s not puffing marijuana as a medical supplement, let alone for pleasure.

This is devastating. How can I ever know for certain about anyone? How can be sure the next person I meet is saner than her? I feel blessed that I didn’t actually meet her face to face. Times like this, I just want to completely deprive of myself from socializing with anyone.